Season of learning

So I'm trying this blogging thing out again... hoping I can get people interested in my life... LOL

So we say in life you never stop learning and that you should learn something new every day... As a college student I would hope to say that this is true, that I learn something new everyday at least in my classes... well I definitely can say this is not true because I remember plenty of days of classes where I felt I didn't learn a thing... anywho... I feel like I'm in a season of learning about myself and God though it is a good place to be but it is also hard...

Things I've learned about myself include how I am SO dependent on people and how I don't depend on God enough... this came into a harsh reality when the people I depend on weren't avaliable and couldn't help me and I pretty much fell apart... and my not even really being able to know how to even ask for help from anyone and not feeling like I could even explain it to God (who knows all DUH)... I learned how selfish I am when it comes to the relationships I'm in with anyone... I want what I want when I want and I can't give you what you want until I'm ready... that sucks... I also learned that I have a really hard time in thinking or seeing God as a father...

Things I've learned about God include how merciful and gracious He is... (though I mean you know these things because you're told but experience changes alot) I mean seriously, I must serve a gracious God to be forgiven and accepted time and time again after looking for people to replace Him and being rejected or let down... and being so loving and caring and comforting every single time... giving me everything I need...

I'm still learning and I hope to continue because wisdom is priceless