Sometimes they make you wanna...

I love children... they're so cute and funny... lovable and sweet... they're so silly and innocent... free and nonchalant...

Sometimes children annoy me... they're so demanding and whiny... hard headed and naive... they're so cunning and devious... selfish and needy...

That's how I feel with my kids... I love them so much but I know for sure I couldn't work with preschoolers all the time... They cry over EVERYTHING and have never ending energy... yet they are so cute and funny and amusing... it's funny to try to see how their little minds think... and interesting when you can't figure out where in the world they came up with something LOL...

I have this one little girl in my class who, I don't know what's up with her... but everyday no matter how much time I spend in the classroom before all the other teachers leave... as soon as its just me and the kids she starts to cry and wants me to hold her... she doesn't go play (though she wants to so bad...) and she just sits there quietly... well today I think she started to warm up to me because she sat on my lap and was actually talking to me... and playing with me and yelling @ me LOL... trying to hurt me... but she still wouldn't let me put her down... everytime she remembered she was supposed to be sad LOL she sat back up on my lap and watched the kids with me... LOL... she even helped me read a story to the children... she's so sweet but then she'll turn on me in a minute... Then theres another lil boy... he is so bad... he does loves to untie his shoes so I can tie them for him... and laughs when he does it... when I tell him its not funny he just laughs more... when I tell him I'm going to put him in timeout he laughs more... until he gets in timeout... then he cries and cries and throws a tantrum until he gets out... and of course he's still your friend... but he's back to his same stunts... but he should learn his lesson cuz he gets it when he gets home...

All in all I love kids and my job... but boy am I glad for the weekend!!!!!

Obedience

So one of my lil brothers is 11... the one who tries to do everything like me... dance... draw (he got better than me @ that)... play drums, and other instruments... the only thing he doesn't follow me in is being a good student in school because he hates school... and being obedient... my brother does what he wants all the time, no matter if it'll get him in trouble later... on Sunday my mother gave him a five dollar bill and told him only to spend $2 and no more and she was going to ask for the change... she said this to him more than once and other people even asked him now how much money are you allowed to spend and he said $2... He spent $2.50... yes it was only $.50 but it was the fact that he was told not to spend the money... afterwards he tried to act like he dropped the other $.50 in between the seats of our truck but no one was fooled... and then today his camp went swimming... my brother is growing dreads and his hair gets out of wack when its not wet... my mother told him like 5x not to get his hair wet... she had me remind him before they left not to get his hair wet... needless to say he came back with not only his hair wet but he was under water and all... and he asks me to do his hair... LOL I told him he deserves to have his hair look a mess for a day... and of course he's grounded with no TV for the rest of the week... because of it... guess who was sneaking and watching TV and got caught...

Why am I telling y'all all this??? No, not to tell you how bad my brother is... How often are we like children to God and blatantly disobedient just like my brother? How many times does God tell us to do something but we don't want to so we don't? How many times does God tell us not to do something and we know we shouldn't but we do anyway because it's only one little thing? How many times do we try to cover up our disobedience or give rationale to it??? This is so dangerous because not only are we hurting ourselves in the moment, but we are preventing God from blessing us and from our continual growth in the purpose for which we were called... as the saying goes Obedience is better than Sacrifice... what will you be sacrificing? Only God knows... so I suggest you obey...

Friend Part 3

LOL... this is my second post in like 4 hours... I think too much LOL but I was looking @ my cousin's facebook page and came across this silly horoscope thingy... I usually don't pay attention to them because it's not telling you your future or anything... but this one caught my attention because it was about friends... and my cousin and I are only 20 days apart so we have the same lil zodiac thingy...

anyway the thing said "A friend's words may come off harsh, but they truly mean well. Think about what your friend's trying to say to you and try not to be too sensitive." This was very interesting to me... of course because all I'm thinking about it friends... How many times do we misinterpret what people say and become offended because of it and then stop talking to the person when they meant well??? Isn't the point of a friendship to be able to help one another by telling each other the truth??? I mean if you can't take the truth, what you want lies??? LOL Honestly, a friend who lies to you to save you from pain is no friend... But that just goes back to are they a true friend anyway? Or just someone you call your friend but in actuality they're just someone you know...

The bible says Jesus was a friend who stuck closer than a brother... and Jesus never lied to his friends... in fact he chewed them out when they left him hanging in the garden of Gethsemane... But it was all out of love... How do you take your friend's words? How do you tell your friends tough truths? I understand that you have to tell the truth too (and fully support it) but what happens if you have a feeling you friend will not understand or you tell them the truth and you know you hurt them??? I think you should try to explain better and make amends... I think if you're thinking about it before you should approach the situation with caution and prayer and yeah... I don't know why I'm always going on tangents on friends cept for the fact that I've had alot of one sided friendships and have made these mistakes before... there's nothing worse than thinking someone is your friend and later you come to find that they were far from it... ok... enough...

Never Alone

First I'll start with a few jokes... How do you know your nail polish is cheap and you've been wearing it for too long?... When it start changing colors LOL... I've been wearing this nail polish since June 2 for NaKhia's wedding... and it was pink... this morning when I woke up it was purple and I just couldn't stop looking @ my hands because I was so amazed... I've never seen nail polish change colors... I mean and its a pretty purple too LOL...

So I spent most of Saturday with my father because you know father's day was yesterday but Sunday's are really busy for me... my dad rented a car in the morning... I don't know why... but it has this thing called data link connector... its very special LOL... so when you hit the breaks hard like to stop... the volume on the radio goes down... and when you accelerate 15 mph or more the volume goes up... my dad and I were laughing so hard we were crying... and my lil sister in the back was like, what's so funny??? LOL... but it was pretty hilarious....
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So this weekend my brother had his dance concert... they have been hardcore practicing for 3 weeks and it has been torturous... Well the final product was amazing and God showed up and ministered which was awesome because the director has been having some issues so the fact that the show even happened was a testimony... So in the production there was this one dance that really talked to me... it was with a woman and "God" to Barlow Girl's Never Alone and both times I watched it I nearly cried... Here are the lyrics:

I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed You today
So where did You go?
You told me to call
Said You'd be there
And though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel You by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life
We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

This song... that dance... really spoke to my heart... because I've been feeling distant from God lately... not wanting to pray... not wanting to take anything to Him... not believing... but seeing that dance on Saturday night opened the door for my heart to be open to trying to talk to God... and then Sunday @ church I was able to and it was like "I missed you so much!" and then I got to see the dance again on Sunday night and it was like confirmation... like the first time was to open me up and the second was like end conversation.. but don't forget... I'm still here... It's awesome how lyrics to songs can often say exactly how you feel for you... and I know there needs to come time where the Word needs to be enough and not music... but for now... God has my back and knows just what I need...